Baby, its been a week that your gone and i thought i could have handled you not being here for this time, and especially without talking to you i cant. i just cant. the first week.baby i tried hard to be happy and keep my head up. it was going well until i havent wrote a single word in blogger for you. so a saturday came. and i wanted to write so bad for you, but my cousins came over and i couldn't , so that night i dunno i had the weirdest emotions in the world, i laid there in bed. missing you ,and i was getting angry, for missing you. cause i know you wouldnt want to see me like this. u want me to keep that head up but i tried! i tried really bad, but i just couldnt hun! i couldnt.. i cried soo bad. and just couldnt stop..=[ hun i miss you dearly, and when u had msged me on msn once. i thought you would at least say something.. about missing me but yenno it happens i guess baby is having a good time there. . .
[Jan27/09]
hun im afraid im soo scared.. i dunno what to do. how were both so occupied with each other it keeps us happy to be with each other, and i know your stronger then me and when your with your family at pinas, im here really feeling bad..cause your the one that makes me happy. and without you here im like LOST! i need you hun.. so bad. that first week was brutal and everynight since saturday im dieing! im crying everynight , just trying to not think about my hun.. it breaks my heart. and missing you makes it hurt! i cant do this no more.. but im trying my best to hun! im trying really hard. i need u here ... =[ hun please come home . i need you. hun everyday time i wanna see you icant cause ur not here..
hun, today i did my first exam.. and it was good as good. i tried my best.i think i did good. it was pretty easy. and my average for business is 84%.Hun i need u here! please come home.. i gave you soo much texts and i didnt get anyback it hurt hun! i thought u were gonna text me.... HUN! everything reminds me of you, EVERYTHING, how in the morning i take that bus and subway reminds me of how me and my hun takes the bus and subway together. and i'd give bus fare if u didnt have any. and just everything hun...i cant stand this no more your not here. i just cant stand it
PLEASE come back soon... these songs hurt! it reminds me of u too much.. =[
[Jan29/09]
Hun..gosh it hurts nowing that your not here..baby i have so many scratches on my hands and arms from work! like i can count 2 on my fingers,2 cuts on my left arm, and one cut on my right hand.. like Geez.! well hun ive been telling you how much i miss you and i want my baby to know what ive been doing and what i am doing.. well hun. since u left last week. and from those days ive been at school. and downloading private servers.. so like really just that until work days....saturday of jan.24.o9 my cousins came over..so um we were extremely bored and we were just watching youtube videos...umm soon after.. monday came.. and i went to school. so that was jan 25. o9... and um like 5 students for all my classes, gosh hun! i was soo alone. people kept asking me why i went to school. and all i couldve said was that you werent here.. like i wouldve skipped but hun is not here =[....HUN I MISS U SO MUCH! D'= ...
Tuesday of Jan.27.o9 my first exam.. Business[i think i already said this...but] business exam! it was soo easy, i didnt even study hun...[sorry,lol] but i did good tho. and my avg was 84.6% for business then i got home.. and i just went on maple and played till i had guitar class.which was EXTREMELY boring,, and obviously i was the best one there! lmfao cause i ROCK! wooot. hmm so next off was ugh....
Wednesday of Jan.28 and my 2nd exam.. it was MATH! ..gosh it was pretty difficult.. so it was applied which u know about.. and it was HARD! holy smokes.like this one guy grade 11 needed my help LMFAo..well we just yenno shared answeres with like 5 other people.. [that means my teacher is not that good cause we cheat] and um...well i at least did like 8/14 questions...BUT even if i didnt do the exam i wouldnt fail..cause the teacher said if u have 50+ out of 70 as a mid term you will pass. and i had a 60/70 so it was good [=...oh umm.. .and after that.. i went home..and liked worked out...WHICH HURT!.. it was the first day i started too LMFAO .. i was like 1, 2, 3 ,4. huff puff. 5. huff puff.. 6. 7 ...so yeah it was pretty hard.. it hurt tho.. i tried so hard. picturing the "fags" face like infront of me which i tried punching. so that sorta motivated me to keep punching and crunching.. Lol so it was good. then so after about 45min.. i got EXTREMELY tired.. and yeah.. i didnt see a changed.. but it'll get there.LOL... hmm work came after that.. so i went to work. then i kept feeling pain on my abdomine area.. oh my gosh.. like cramps! it hurt soo bad and i still feel it now.. and its like thursday....well after that i went on the computer.. and yes hun.. i went on my account. and just talked to leah.. oh hun its was her birthday..and shes inviting me to fairview..with other people, to eat? but yeah.. i know my hun would like doubt me but she trusts me.. and so may i go hun? you would probably say yes in this situation,because you want me to be occupied and not to miss hun so much.. so im gonna go..but im not staying late hun..! otay? me come home straight.. [= LOVE YOU! next up .. TODAY! [=
Thursday Jan.29'09
Otay hun.. so what i did today.. hmm i had my 3rd exam...Woot it was weird :S ...religion.. and most of it was opinion.. so i dont know if i was right.. but i needed it ALOT ..cause im getting around 60%+ ...awell..i studied pretty..no i didnt study.. im soo lazy..well so yeah.. i finished that.and i went to my guidance councellor.so now i have a spot FINALLY on my 4th period for next semester which is this monday.. and hun isnt here yet =[...but she'll be here after the last week.. so yeah i finally got a spot..when i spent my time going to guidance for the past 2 weeks.. cause i needed to get in that class for my hun! like i wanna get fit for her.. lmfao so yeah im doing weight lifting hun! woot.. gonna be like benching alot..and becoming your super macho man LMFAO..well i dont care what i look like. cause i know my hun would love me no matter what i look like! ..[i hope! SHE BETTER LMFAO]..well hun so after all that rush. i came home...and i started off by eating.. hmm i had yogurt,tangerine,Mac & Cheese.. and um..orange juice! [=...so yeah after eatting. i played another game.. Combat Arms.. what i use to play! lol..well thats alll so far i remember i did...LOVE SO MUCH HUN.. and i miss you like KRAZZIE! MUAH! <3!>
[Feb.2nd'09]
Baby! theirs only 8 more days and about one week left BEFORE YOU COME HOME! yay! hun i miss u SOOO bad right now.. i know ive been saying that all the time but BABY! COME BACK!! :'( !!!!!!! so im back from missing to write on this since friday...but i'll recap! soooo...
Friday 30'o9
I finished my last exam.. and a EASY PEASY civics ... holy smokes, well actually its cause i was beside a really smart guy lmfao! i hope i got good. so it was ALOT of multiple choice questions.. and i actually studied for a good 30minutes for it! lmfao i hope i did well.and it was SNOWING! like crazzie holy hun.. u would have been surprised... and we couldve seen it together but hun is at pinas in the warm soothing weather...=[ ... oh baby i miss u ....and soo..on to that day.. i had WORK! god dam work! hooly smookes.. i HATE work.. especially on friday.. hun i work fridays again.. they put me on cause theres only 10 CSR's and they have to work in the 5 days of a week. so, yeah hun they made me work.. and i told them i cant..cause i have soo many excues but the other csr's also tried.. and the manager wont let anyone switch.. she knows how workers use excuses now... so i have to work =[...oh im soo sorry hun.. but as soon as i get people to join then i can get off friday's again! =[... oh hun im sooo sorrry. and i kept thinking what working friday will do to us.. when u get back.. it'll prolly want u to get mad at me..cause hun doesnt like me to work fridays.. im really sorry hun.. i tried really hard to not work..but the manager..she keeps saying no..but hun..everything will be okay.. i promise you.. i miss you soo bad baby..=[.....okay so that night hun i slept pretty early...around 10? well i got extremely tiring from work.. they had soo many bad and stubborn customers that were soo pushy, so i slept early cause i was tired..but i didnt sleep. i listened to music , and looked at our pictures from my ipod.. i kept wondering if you missed me.. and if ur with rj and keeping him safe..our son.. he must be big now...and hun...i wanted to know if u were looking at our pictures too..but all and all it was a really restless night.. i cried myself to sleep again.. like i can never go to bed without missing you cause how we would ALWAYS talk on the phone.. =[ made me want to talk on the phone too..but , NO never hun.. i'd never talk on the phone late unless its with you baby.. . i miss you hun....baby, my love, please come home..
Saturday o1ó9
So the SECOND saturday...and im soo tired.. glad to be finished exams.. but yet UNHAPPY cause me and my hun planned so many things on our exam days..=[ we could have done SOO MUCH and done soooo MANY! but hun...had to go to pinas.. its okay baby, we always have our lifetime...which i'll always keep strong. as long as my baby does too....! baby so i woke up at around 8:35am.. and my rents were going to work.. and i got extremely bored,, all i did was watch tv and talk on msn..by the way hun.. i only talk to richelle, and leah..so i got EXTRLEMEY bored.. so i called andrew over.. is that okay hun? its only andrew, lmfao i remember when i told baby that i was going to andrew's and baby thought i said angela LMFAO. baby i'd never go to her house...and i would barely go to others house, but this was for isu that was due that week. lmfao.. well yeah so baby, andrew came over. and i got a new game.. did i tell you already? well if i didnt, i got a game called killzone. .cause my gift from christmas was that remote control car. that i got.. so i gave it back for 33$ and my mom got killzone a shooting game..and also a memory card cause i dont have any LMFAO.. so yeah andrew came over and we just played killzone..and also, i cooked ribs for lunch.. and i burned my right hand.. =[ HUN KISS IT BETTER! gosh..welll yeah its just a little thing.. but it very visible.. lmfao...well that was pretty much for 2 hours.. until 1'oclock..cause i went to leah's birthday...we went to fairview, and i had a brownie.. and shared fries with cousin kaycee,lucky she was there, cause i know hun wouldnt want me to go...but yeah.. hun so .. we ate at moxies.. which is not a bar..lmfao baby still thinks its a bar..im gonna take u there one day.. hopefully soon enough when you get back..;) [wink!] and we watched a movie.. hun i sat beside cousin, and we watched that 3-D movie.. me and hun was suppose to watch that together! ..well i slept like 70% of it...until cousin..pinched me.. awell...hun we going to watch a movie.. im gonna treat you like a princess on valentines.. OPPS.. that slipped lmfao.. well hun i got home around 8..which i was suppose to be home at 6. but i got extremely hungry.. so i had ice cream...oh and cousin..dropped me home.. which kinda took awhile, cause her parents were still at jane.so yeah. it took awhile. but i got home, safe and missing you even more...later that night i was playing killzone until like 11. and i forgot that i had work the next day.. so i listened and looked at our pictures on ipod[RRNC+LACF] and once again.. i you know... weeped..but i tried really hard to stop..so i just whiped it off before i closed my eyes.. that was the closest i got to not crying myself to sleep.so that was that day...LOVE YOU BABYGIRL!<3!
Sunday Feb.1'o9
Hun! work day, and obviously i went to work lmfao! started at 10..but ended up going to work at like 10 minutes after..but but i went to work..and for the first time hun.. it was SUNNY.. like you couldve worn just a sweater and didnt neeed a jacket.. for the first time.. holy cow baby.. it was actually warm outside in the winter.. some weird weather. but my hun would have loved it...yet it was pretty busy hun.. and i got 5$ tip from it all...awell it was still good.. and so work as it goes is busy,and we left work at around 7:30pm so it was pretty early too baby.yum when i got home.. i went on the computer once again..but only to check on facebook.. Lol and so i got off after 10minutes on facebook.. and i went to my room to play ..and oh man did i have a head ache.. and for the FIRST TIME EVER.. i didnt cry..BUT you know why!? because i was WAY TIRED.. from work, the weather, and my head ache.. i had the worst head ache...hun..the first time i slept.. without crying..but i didnt like it at all.. i wanted to miss you cause i had never done that before.. i love you soo much hun.. and i trully want you back...as soon as possible..cause my heart is crying for you.
